It is 100% okay to want to change your body. It is 100% okay if you do end up changing your body.
But, you 100% do not need to change your body to prove your worth as a human, as a parent, as a child, as a friend, as a partner, as a professional, as a student.
Get the weight you were in high school or before kids or before major life changes out of your head. We’re meant to grow and change as we go through the seasons of our lives. It may require you to grieve the loss of your former body or your former weight, and that’s okay.
Just in case no one told you: even when you recover your relationship with your body, you’re not going to love it all the time. You’re not always going to feel good about yourself. Some days you’re going to feel uncomfortable and out of place. You’re going to want out of your body. Your body may not feel like your own on some days. And you’re going to have bad body image days where you feel like everyone is looking at you and judging the way you look.